Life A.D: How I regained “control” of my life

To Whom it May Concern.

My life used to be different. I don’t mean different in the sense that certain loved ones existed then. For example, my best friend Brian, my cousin Lizzy, and most recently the G.O.A.T of Mothers.  I mean, I used to be depressed. Some days it would be mild, some days uncontrollable to the point that the voice in the back of my head kept saying, “Is today the day?”  I was broken and angry and I lacked any notion of self-worth. I would get angry over the pettiest of things.  FINALLY, after 6+ years of apathy,  I said that enough is enough and began to do some unorthodox soul-searching.  

This was obviously a subjective process, however, hearing other people’s stories creates a connected feeling among us and reminds you that you ARE NOT alone.  I truly believe the only way to achieve true happiness, you must struggle. Take notes from the phoenix and I implore you to RISE FROM THE ASHES!!!!

Below is my “rough” outline of my long journey but before you dive in, I give you a quote from Warren Buffet that resonated with me.

“It’s good to learn from your mistakes. It’s better to learn from other people’s mistakes.”

  • First and Foremost, Simply Endure
    • Initially ditch the big-picture mentality — I cannot stress enough the importance of eliminating unnecessary stress during the introduction to raw grief.
    • Adopt a day-by-day mentality — Some days you’ll feel helpless, alone, and/or empty.  Remind yourself tomorrow is another day.
    • Embrace the magnitude of grief and understand that you WILL struggle.  There is no getting around it. PERIOD
      • It contradicts the rigid pride of mankind, however, you must be willing to ask for help. Being vulnerable doesn’t devalue your spirit, it’s quite the contrary.  Letting your guard down requires courage, not weakness.
    • FEEL. You must allow yourself to experience all the feelings. Fighting to suppress them is a constant uphill battle. And NO, crying doesn’t make you a “pussy”. Why this is programmed into our mentality? That I have yet to understand.
  • Research the human experience
    • Eliminate all preconceived notions and re-evaluate pre-existing values and belief system
    • Research the power and dangers of dogmatism.  Lack of evidence-based beliefs is likely to be our apocalypse… before you cast stones, it’s just a theory!
    • Adopt an extreme ideology. Yes, this sounds silly.  With that said, it’s certainly possible to be an “extremist” without causing physical harm to humanity.  For example: ditch processed foods, they are designed to kill you. Just saying 😉
    • Understand the problems with institutions and how consistently corrupt they can be. In layman’s terms, I truly believe we are essentially caging our “natural” existence. Rest assured though, there are proven ways to be “Neo and break from “The Matrix”
  • Re-establish a foundation of FIRM yet RATIONAL beliefs
    • Determine what ACTUALLY matters to you. Honesty is key because I believe this is essential in discovering your true passions.
      • Trust me, consumerism DOESN’T matter.  It simply magnifies any pre-existing void you have
      • Abandon the narcissistic  notion of “Money over everything”. Money is the root of all evil and will never make you feel true happiness
    • Experiment with your passions, and in doing so, I believe you can discover your “purpose” in life

AGAIN, considering the shamefully litigious society we exist in, I remind you that these are MERELY suggestions.  

Take it for what it’s worth. If I somehow inspire a single individual, my goal is achieved.

Always with love,


Author: Bee's Jayyy

I'm just a simpleton with dreams of changing the world! My sails have been adjusted and my destination has been predetermined. ONE LOVE, LOVE ALL

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